My social facade

Just because you don’t see my struggles on here doesn’t mean I don’t struggle…
Just because you don’t see me being humbled by mistakes on here, doesn’t mean I haven’t been humbled by many…
Just because you see the snap shots and perceived perfection on here, doesn’t mean I think I’m perfect and don’t lift my hands to God in utter shame sometimes realising I could have done things better…
Just because you don’t see my apologies to those I’ve hurt on here, doesn’t mean I haven’t apologised to them…
And just because you may not see my realisations doesn’t mean I’m ignorant and don’t care…
I choose to share the surface with those who aren’t close, and the depths with those who are and I’m doing just fine despite not getting it right all the time. I’ve disappointed a lot of people who care about me but they are still here. It’s not because I deserve to be happy, but because my faith and my God say I can be, and God knows I pray everyday for those I’ve hurt… But I don’t put those prayers on here either.

If you want to know someone give them a call, have a coffee, look at them in the eye and put your hand on their shoulder. If you want to care about someone ask them how they are; and actually care enough to not just challenge them but to walk with them through it too.

I’m challenged by what I’m writing too, and hope to have the opportunity to be stretched in this by meeting someone like myself who’s just giving what has been a messy life a crack, and trying to live with purpose, leaving the past behind.

Living by grace, and thankful for it.